January 04, 2006
Last

21st of march 2004,the day where this blog is created. Not for me,but for the memories I had with someone. I still remember the first time I saw her on the 27th of march 2004. Her smile.The ticket to hearing her voice is still kept with me in a box.

This will be my last post. 101 th post. I'm tired.

Lonely from 2000 to 2004.Year 2004 Febuary,I found something. Gazing into the sky,someone called. Crying.
Trust.I've hoped for all these years. I realised that I m in love.

Unforgettable past. I kept circling through it again and again. Hoping. Knowing what I've done was wrong. Hurt alot of people around me. Close to me.

But I never shed a tear. Till now,I cried. Alone.
It's raining now. Cold.

Are you really happy? I'm not,without you. I may not be a promising lad. But I'm willing to try.
I can't step out of my own shadows from the past. I feel so trapped deep down inside.

The first girl I've ever hugged. A warmth was felt. Once was enough.

Photos. Non was taken after 1 year and 11 months. So close yet so far from each other. But some others can have a pic taken with a person whom they only knew for 2 months. Worried and concerned everyday for someone isn't a bad thing right?

Are you truly happy with the one you're being with now? Or the one you're hoping to be with?

Is hugging and saying I love you really Love? Kiss? Holding hands?
I still believe in Heart to Heart. Trust. The hush things I've said to her. I lied. Everything was still with me. Because I had never ever let her out of my mind.

I know you're trying very hard. It's ok just to let it go and be yourself. Follow where your heart.

消失在夜空的星星的聲音
散發虛幻光芒的淺黑色月亮
我倆同游的大海不知為何
轉眼間漸漸變了色 不想就這樣沉睡﹒﹒﹒
還想要感覺你﹒﹒﹒
如果你寂寞的時候
我甚至無法在你的身旁
可是知道了失去的傷痛的你
你能抓住其他的愛 我這樣祈禱著
若有一天你迷失在夜中
突然重新回想那一天的話
在眩目不己的太陽之中
要想著微笑的我喊
彼此重疊著的喜歡的堅強
連哭泣都變成了愛
雙手裡抱著逞強的愛的軟弱
確定了脆弱的牽絆
可是為了活在現今的你
會永遠永遠守護著
My love 在心中﹒﹒﹒
想哭的時候或是痛哭的時候
只要想起我就好
相依畏的地方遙遠的夏日
溫暖 生命的喜悅 所有都在心中. . .

Sorry to everyone that are concerned about me.

I'll end everything here. Marks the end of this chapter of my life. I'm too old for blogging. Remembering the past is painful. I might start my own dairy in a book.

我遇見了世界上最美麗的女孩
聽見了世上最美妙的心跳聲
在這世界上能擁抱自己身心的人
在那懷中才能感受到無比溫暖
正因為如此，失去心愛的人才會痛苦啊不過，
這是為什麼呢？為什麼會這麼痛苦呢？

I'll wait for you...

Evan


Evan Wee was alone 4:20 PM

I will make it to the top